9st 6lbs.  I am FREAKING the fuck out.  That's heavier than the number I had in my head.

I now want to curl up in a ball and not see anyone for the rest of the day.

But instead I've got to teach, and I'm going to see what my new target number is.  1000 cal is obviously too much.  Way way too fucking much.

800?  That's do able.  I'm wary about decreasing it too far, because when I do that I binge and then I purge and I KNOW that's not healthy or sustainable.

So I need to find my point where I'm losing weight the fastest but don't have such large blood sugar dips that I binge - because that's what I do.

9 st 6lb.

How digusting!